Last day of 53 and June is oddly positive

I’m having this weird George Bailey gratitude for everything in my life despite the fact that things aren’t going that great, which of course is also how it went for George Bailey. “I’m going to jail. Isn’t it wonderful?”

If you never saw It’s a Wonderful Life I guess you have no idea what I’m talking about. To sum up, things are going very badly for this one guy, George Bailey, and then he gets to see his life from another perspective and all the rotten things suddenly seem wonderful to him.

That’s how I am right now.

There’s nothing worse than a positive person. And yet here I am.

I’m grateful for my little mill house, even though I live in a marginal neighborhood. The neighbors are all very kind to me, and there’s often window-peeking excitement, like CPS showing up and the like. But it feels safe here, and it’s quiet AF because I’m on a dead-end street and have no one behind me but a railroad track, and my mortgage is approximately $10 a month like I live on Baltic Avenue.

What’s the rent on Baltic? Is there really a real Baltic Avenue in real life? Because I would love to live there. Or Oriental, which I really hope is no longer a street name.

I’m grateful for my baby-blue car that I LOVE, even though I would have preferred the no-convertible one with the white roof, and every time I tell everyone that they’re all, Seriously? But yes. The white roof would’ve been so cute. But they only had a convertible available and once again people are all, Seriously?

Now that I have a convertible, I can see that it’s pretty fun. Anyway, I just made my first payment on it and I’m grateful to be able to pay for it.

I’m grateful for my friends, who are all younger and cuter than me but what can you do. Almost everyone I am friends with is the sensible half of the relationship, and thank heavens there are sensible people out there who actually like me. If I were the sensible type, I’d be driven insane by me, but some people aren’t judgmental pieces of dung, and for that I am happy.

I just heard the rooster crow across the street and I’m also grateful for that rooster.

I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I’m not on an antidepressant or anything, which is usually the time I get annoyingly content, like a sleeping cat with starfish paws.

This weekend I was stricken with a migraine, but before I was I went on a walk in a woodsy trail with a necklace and lipgloss on, because that’s how I outdoor. Someone mentioned that the American South is like all of Australia, in that the outdoors is constantly trying to kill you. So even though I was out there with ticks and copperheads and Confederate flags, I still felt happy I live in such a beautiful state.

I know. I’m the worst.

I’ll talk to you tomorrow, when I’m 54. I opened all my presents this weekend because my actual birthday will be busy and I wanted time to appreciate them all as I unwrapped them. That vintage necklace was a gift and isn’t it cute cute cute? It needed to go out and enjoy the tick-y woods. It was probably holed up in a jewelry box for decades.

Anyway, my burgeoning lyme disease will talk to you tomorrow on my bee day.

Before I go, did I ever tell you that my grandfather figured out that our ages always added up to the same number?

Tomorrow I’ll be 54. 5 + 4 = 9.

He would have turned 99 this year, in May. 9 + 9 = 18. 1 + 8 = 9.

It always worked out that way since the year he figured it out. I don’t know why he was sitting around figuring that out, but if you had to live with my grandmother you’d have gone off and thought of shit like that too. #Pill.

53-ing-ly,
June

59 thoughts on “Last day of 53 and June is oddly positive

  1. I just watched Oprah interviewing Shawn Achor–whom I love–about happiness. Gratitude is a major ingredient. I loved your list. Happy almost birthday!

    Lovely post, lovely June!

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  2. June, this is such a nice post! I hope your birthday and the upcoming year continue to give you lots of things for which to be grateful!

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  3. What a birthday gift, to be so content. Also, I think you can add discovering the curly girl method to your list of happy things. Your hair always looks SO good. Anyway, happy birthday from one July kid to another!

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  4. Congratulations on turning 2,592 weeks old!
    I’m just a few months older than you. I look in the mirror and am shocked, because mentally I think I always feel like I’m in my early 30s.

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  5. I loved this. I’ve had the odd experience of feeling content, or (what??) happy after one of the toughest years of my life. I felt as if you put it into words for me. One of the reasons I’m a Faithful Reader (and lurker).
    Happy birthday. Thanks for being part of my virtual life…you make it better.

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  6. Your necklace is lovely! I have a vintage white necklace and wear it all the time. When I bought it (on Etsy) I had no idea just how often I would really wear it. Turns out A LOT, especially in the summer. So, I bought a similar bracelet, too.
    You know how millennials write every detail of their children’s birth stories on their blogs? We should have Mother do that. heeeee! It would be so fun.
    Happy pre-Birthday!

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  7. Lovely post June. I can actually feel your contented spirit in it.

    We were watching TV last night and there was a scene where one of the characters was going on a picnic and she had on full jewels and 3-inch stilettos. My husband mentioned how ridiculous it was and I said, “I know someone who might do that.” “Really? Who?” “My friend June, who writes on a website and don’t tell me she’s not my real friend!”

    Happy Birthday.

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  8. Happy Birthday! Aww, that post was pure delight and brought tears to the corner of my eyes! Love you and so happy you are so grateful for life!

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  9. Happy last day of 53. Isn’t it nice to realize that you have a wonderful life?

    Your birthday card is in the mail. Yeah, I’m old enough to actually mail cards.

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  10. Happy Birthday!
    There is nothing wrong with you! You’ve just reached your personal no-f*cks-left-to-give age, and that is the best age to be.
    Monopoly streets are named after the streets in Atlantic City, NJ. Trust me, you do not want to live on any of them

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  11. I was at the oral surgeon getting Eddie’s wisdom teeth pulled. I wrote a comment but my phone was struggling to connect. Now my comment is not here and I am in the throws of gauze and pain meds. Just gonna say I do not accessorize – boring that way?- but I do love necklace. And comment about gpa dealing with grandma was my fav. Happiest of days to you!

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  12. Seems like world wants us all to aim for BLISS! but really I think that content (contentedness?) is the best feeling ever. I love that peaceful, low-key, content feeling. So happy that you feel this way for your birthday week. Happy birthday June!

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  13. Happy birthday eve! I’m glad you’re feeling contented; being ecstatic all the time would be exhausting, but contentment’s a pretty good goal.

    My daughter and I also have that age number thing every year. I’ll be 57 this year and she’ll be 30. 5+7=12, 1+2=3. Someone mathematically minded told me it happens because she was born in the year I turned 27 and 27 is a multiple of 9. 9’s are some kind of math magic.

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  14. Happy birthday!

    This post made me realize once again that my life is indeed wonderful, so thank you.

    Your necklace made me wonder why I haven’t been wearing these three jewelry boxes worth of vintage jewelry that belonged to Aunt Edythe, Aunt Alda, and Mom. They were born in 1895, 1919, and 1923, so you can imagine the variety of styles. I went through it all on Saturday and plan to put everything in a clear glass lamp to put on my dresser. Maybe I should wear some instead — or give some pieces to you. Let me know the next time you head to Hickory or Asheville so you can stop by to look through it and choose some. Really, I’m serious. I like knowing things will be loved and used instead of being stored away in drawers or closets like they have been for decades. Let me know if you’d like some.

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  15. Happy Birthday week, June. I celebrate for at least a week, maybe longer if it warrants it. You look beautiful in your pick with wedding Alex, like sisters. Thank you for reminding me to be content and happy in my daily life. Enjoy the furry children today, especially those temps you have. They should bring you lots of joy with their antics.

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  16. Happy birthday! My 67 year old theory is to make sure to celebrate the hell out of the good times. Then during bad times, there is always another celebration to look forward to.

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  17. Happy almost birthday! I turned 54 in June. So far so good. I have days of gratitude and some days when I am just full of joy and contentment. I don’t know why I am surprised by those days, because my life is pretty great, but they do catch me off guard sometimes.

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  18. I always feel that discontent is what brings personal change so maybe you are in that phase? I get frustrated with something, usually my weight, and whine about that for a while, even if it’s just to myself. Then I figure out that I can still move and touch my toes and that broccoli tastes delicious. Sometimes I lose a few pounds and sometimes I quit being so hard on myself. Sometimes I do both.

    You look great as an outdoor woman. I’m okay with snakes and big spiders I can see. I’m okay if a tarantula crosses my path but do not let a tick get on me. End of the world. I howl about it for ages.

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  19. Happy birthday eve. May your hair behave and the humidity index stay low, may your migraines be few and fleeting, may your cats shed less and your Edz continue his abject worship of you. Birthday wishes for you.

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    • We do this in my family – it goes
      Happy Birthday -1
      Happy Birthday
      Happy Birthday +1

      and then it ends because could you imagine your birthday being a whole year….

      Happy Birthday June – perhaps you could make your celebrations last for the week cause you deserve it!

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  20. The countdown has begun…
    Great post for a start today, very glad most is well with you.
    Enjoy today, your last day of 53.
    I certainly enjoy reading you.

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  21. Have a great Birthday Season! Your necklace is lovely, and reminds me of one from my mother’s collection. You do vintage so well. Also, that lip color in the pic with Wedding Alex looks great one on you. You can *so* do the dramatic lip (and, life).

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  22. Happy almost birthday. I am delighted that you are in such a happy place. I am feeling the same today, even before I read this after some awful grief misery , and boy howdy doesn’t it feel nice? I LOVE that adorable vintage necklace and it is SO you! Your house, car and you are quite adorable. Enjoy the happy happy joy!

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    • I am truly happy for you and your era of contentment! You look lovely and have secured a wonderful life for yourself. That in itself is something to be proud of. Enjoy your birthday week and all the exciting happenings!
      Capeliver Karen

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  23. And it’s Prime Day, another thing to be grateful for. Until the bill comes , and you think ” What the actual fuck do I need a slow pot for, I hate to cook?” Great post!

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  24. I turn 55 on the 20th and this post rings true. We really have to remind ourselves about all the good amongst the not so good. I also too, outside in jewelry and lipstick so I salute you. Happy Birthday Pretty June!

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  25. Happy birthday June! I’m not bugged by the cheerful gratitude, maybe because it isn’t too bad a day yet. Anyway happy for you and your vintage necklace.

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  26. Happy birthday week, June! I loved your post. I’m working toward being more content, and I think it’s helping to make me less anxious. Life is GOOD, even when it isn’t going to plan. Take a note from my mother-in-law and celebrate for several weeks.

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    • I have a birth month. I love October any way. The older we get we have less birthdays ahead of us so I say milk it for all it is worth.

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  27. I think the streets in Monopoly are named after the streets in Atlantic City and that is why I am not a nuclear physicist. Because shit like that is taking up vital space in my brain. There is still a Baltic Avenue, and, yes, still an Oriental Avenue. I have not been to Atlantic City in thirty years, so please anyone feel free to correct me, but when I was there, it is all glitz and glamour (pffft, as if) at the hotels and then one block over, depressed and sad living conditions. “Sketchy” comes to mind. But again, that was thirty-plus years ago.

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    • I’m not an AC person but friends go a bit and it’s the same from what I’m told. It’s been at least fifteen years for me too. My husband used to drag me to the antique car show there. Some marketing genius set up great shopping in the lobby for the ladies and that was fun. We’d also have dinner in a great seafood place on the way home. I am a slot machine virgin, not lucky, sore loser.

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  28. You don’t look a day over 40. Natural beauty is what you are, out in nature and all.

    I frequently find myself just feeling grateful for the simple life that I have. Sure I have Stuff and Crap, but for the most part I am very, very lucky. Imma refrain from adding a #blessed here, but that is definitely the way it feels most days. I’m a few years ahead of you in the Game of Life, so maybe this is just the way we wind down, with a sense of if this is as good as it gets then I guess it’s gonna be good enough.

    Happy day before your birthday! I’ll be back tomorrow for the Birthday Card and Phone Call Tally.

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      • I was kidding. But I wonder if we will also start counting things when we hit a certain age. My mom counts trick-or-treaters on Halloween (she keeps a score sheet at the door), guests at her 80th birthday party, Christmas cards, people at church, how many muffins the other ladies eat at her coffee klatch… you name it, she counts it. And then calls me to give me the tallies. Weird old lady behavior? Hopefully avoidable.

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  29. June, this was the best post! Full of joy and contentment. Gratitude is a beautiful thing. And so are you.

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  30. I am humbled by your attitude today!
    I turn 50 today. And I really haven’t been one to focus on a number, but my long and fruitful newspaper career tanked earlier this year. I fell like a loser. #pityparty

    I have a mega-ton to be happy about, primarily my husband and hilariously weird kids, 3 dogs, 3 cats and 5 chickens and a house we bought 5 years ago this week that I super love that’s old and quirky just like us. And I do have a job now, it’s just #boring and doesn’t seem to be making a difference like the old one did.
    But I digress.

    I hope you enjoy your life June, even half as much as I enjoy following along!

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