What blew in

Here’s the mistake I made. I got up, fed all 200 animals in here, showered, made coffee, and sat down to write you some sort of riveting tome when I said, “I’ll just check work emails first.”

Every month, I have a task that takes 10 hours. They usually send it to me on Thursday, and I have to return it Monday before noon. OK, that’s doable, right? Except I keep getting all sorts of other work. “OK, but I have to do that 10-hour thing before Monday noon,” I keep saying. “OK, but after this I have got to get started on the 10-hour thing.”

So I checked email and have three more things to do before I can begin the 10-hour thing. So now I’m in a lather of angst and irked.

Anyway, hi. Let me write you before I begin my Quest for 10 Hours That Don’t End Up Being 5 Hours Saturday and 5 Hours Sunday.

Here’s my current situation, by the way. Forest, who I wasn’t even gonna keep, just adores lying between me and the computer. Also, he PATS at the things moving on screen and I am beginning to see how someone could dump this beautiful fluff at the cemetery.

No, I don’t really. He is the silkiest, sweetest kitty ever, and other than his propensity to sit between me and my screen he is nice but not clingy.

Speaking of black, we are expecting a hurricane or the edges of a hurricane or we’re hurricane-adjacent or something. Today when I was opening the 47 blinds, my Google machine was telling me the crap she always tells me: the time, the temp, the high, the low. Then she finished up with, “A hurricane local statement has been issued. Have a nice day.”

Wait. What?

She’s never said that before. It’s like when I lived in Seattle and worked on the 34th floor. There was a female voice in the elevator, not that I’m hearing voices. I mean there really was. She’d say, “Floor 34,” for example. We called her Mrs. Otis because it was an Otis elevator.

Anyway I worked in that building for years and all she’d ever say is, “Going up” or “Floor 34” or what have you. One day the elevator just stopped. STOPPED! On its way up.

“Do not be alarmed,” Mrs. Otis said. And see, the fact that she said that alarmed me.

I can’t remember what happened after that. Either I crashed to my death or Mrs. Otis got us out of our situation.

Anyway, I asked Google what she meant by a hurricane local statement has been issued, and can’t she use active rather than passive sentences, and all she did was give me the Wikipedia definition of a hurricane local statement.

But I knew something was up anyway because mornings in my kitchen are usually lovely, light-filled times, and today it was this.

Hello, darkness, my old friend. By the way, I can’t wait till I can replace that light. There’s nothing wrong with that light, per se, other than could that light be less June?

I think I want something like this. But not orange. Why are the stripes orange?

Anyway, I had better go and do all the other smaller tasks before that, you know, 10-hour one. I go to the headache doctor today, the specialist, the same one who gave me those nerve block shots that made me turn green 10 years ago. The same guy who told me I should give up caffeine because I have a delicate brain.

I noticed someone rather attitudinally said in the comments the other day, “I cant believe you haven’t considered giving up caffeine for your migraines.”

Dude. I’ve considered it. For 20 years. I’ve tried maybe 60 times. But thanks for the judgement.

I can’t drink. Migraines. I can’t take antidepressants. Migraines. I can’t take ADD medicine. Migraines. I have no fun things anymore. Pandemic. SO COFFEE IS ALL I GOT, man. It’s all I got. But again, can I thank you for the judgement?

Why do people do that? They KNOW they don’t know a person’s whole story yet people do that every day. “Well, why doesn’t she leave? I don’t feel sorry for her.” That’s what a neighbor just said to me about another neighbor who had the crap beaten out of her. I happen to know she has nowhere else to go because her actual family is even worse than the boyfriend. But okay, judge-y.

Anyway. I’m interested in what the headache specialist has to tell me 10 years later. I stopped going last time because among the things we tried were these nerve block shots in my head and neck. I had to get like 20 of them at once, and we were on maybe shot 9 when out of nowhere they made me really nauseated. I’d been lying face-down on a paper sheet thing and when I raised my head I’d left a sweaty Shroud of Greensboro on said paper and at the time I was super extra phobic of throwing up because it had at that point been 28 years since I had barfed and Peg’s norovirus party that broke m’streak was two years away.

So I never went back.

But now these dang things are a daily occurrence and I can’t even stand it another second.

Further reports as developments warrant.

OK, I’m off.

XO,
Hurricane June

61 Comments

  1. Like everybody else I have a cluster of body issues and finally, as a last resort suffered through giving up caffeine which was also my only joy. I had one thing left to try–Chinese medicine. I took my time and sought out a really good one. One of the first things he said? You need to have a cup of coffee or tea first thing every morning for the caffeine to jump start your sluggish energy levels. Like you, they will pry my coffee cup from my cold dead hand. My coffee maker is already set up for my sluggish little index finger to touch the start button first thing on awakening.

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  2. I watched my dad suffer with migraines for years. I wonder if the fact that they’re occurring every day means you are suffering from cluster headaches. Somehow I got the impression that those are more intense but they can come and go (sometimes for months at a time). I hope you can get some answers and relief.

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  3. I have headaches every day lately, too. They’re just headaches, though, not migraines, and when I tell my husband that he looks at me with that puzzled look that only people who’ve never had a migraine can manage.

    I’m feeling very defensive of you and your coffee. My excuse for keeping on with the caffeine is that there are times when the only thing that will stop a brewing migraine is medicine plus caffeine. And if I’m not drinking any caffeine at the time, I will get a rebound migraine from THAT caffeine, and what, are you trying to kill me?

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  4. So sorry about your migraines and I hope you get some relief. I had migraines for the first time during the onset of menopause. I had many reasons to hate my life, ugh! I would get a prodrome two days before the migraine during which I would smell smoke. I’d walk around the office and home sniffing things, looking for fire. Nope, it was my brain. On migraine day I would see paisleys in front of my eyes and the least little noise would make me jump out of my skin. My doctor put me on a Beta-blocker, Toprol, which worked for me. Now I am officially a dusty old bag and have not had a migraine in years. Obviously, not every med is right for every person, that was just my experience.

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  5. It does seem that someone could come up with a headache solution! My daughter had migraines for a long time – and seizures – after a bad car accident. Seizures stopped after second baby. Migraines – now just occasional. Deb, husband, had horrible cluster headaches for a long time – started about a year after a motorcycle accident. He was a Police motor cop. They would come on at odd times. Usually just as guests were arriving for a “squad part” – after we had prepped for 3 days. It would put him in the bedroom in agony and me entertaining until he could emerge a few hours later. Not sure how long he had them as we divorced at some point and he went on to marry the headache from Hell. I am sure that helped him reduce the cluster headaches! (evil smile)

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  6. I really hope your doctor has some good suggestions for your migraines. You’ve suffered more than enough!
    I love schoolhouse lights! They’d definitely work in the style of my house, but I don’t have a single one. Hunh. Wonder why?! I have a few closet lights that are bug and dust catchers. I can barely get them apart to change the bulbs. I must welcome bugs with teensy opposable thumbs.

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  7. My head doctor (what I call her) told me that to (possibly) diminish my migraines I can try three categories of drugs: 1) anti depressants (hair fell out; heart rate sky rocketed); 2) anti seizure meds (on them now, working sort of–interesting side effects); and 3) hyper tension meds. After that, there’s botox (but not the kind that actually gets rid of the forehead wrinkles. And then there are the eleventy thousand other things I’ve done/not done/tried/not tried for my daily dose of hell. Fucking migraines. But the caffeine will be pried out of my cold, dead hands.

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    1. I have tried the antidepressants (didn’t stop migraine), the antiseizure drugs (DID stop migraines but I stopped thinking as well) and now maybe I’ll go for door number three.

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  8. And the trouble with a fishbowl-right-under-the-ceiling light is that to change the lightbulb you have to climb up on a stepladder or shaky chair and tip your head back, which is good for balance, and pick 4 or 5 gritty little screws with your fingernails so you can carefully lower the bowl with dead flies in it.

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    1. The light in our garage is a right-under-the-ceiling light and every time the lightbulb has to be changed, it is a two-person job as one person is on the stepstool and the other person has to find the screws that were dropped.

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  9. June, I can’t beLEEVE you haven’t passed on some of that before-I-do-the-10-hour-thing to one of your co-workers. (Raises and waves hand)

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    1. I already done did it. Poet. That is why I was named Employee of the Universe at our company meeting. Not because you nominated me.

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  10. I’m sorry to hear that your migraines are becoming a daily event. Hoping the doctors have some miracle cure for them and have been waiting for you to come back in to see them to tell you about it. Forrest is a dear little cat I really can’t imagine why the people would dump such a little sweetie. Good luck with your 10 hour job .. oh .. and the hurricane.

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  11. Migraines suck. I get all the symptoms of the migraine but not the headache. My doctor called them silent migraines. I’d never heard of it before. I get the shaky, sweaty, nauseated, weak, faint, and if I don’t lie down I think I might die feeling. It’s definitely not something I would wish on anyone.
    Stay safe.

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  12. Catherine Zeta Jones visited Atlanta in the wee hours. I’ve been awake since 4:00 this morning, listening to the wind and rain. We lost power for seven hours and I can’t tell you how happy I was to hear the refrigerator come back on when the power was restored.

    Hope you get relief from your daily migraines. I can’t even imagine what you are going through.

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      1. She came through here, too, noisy broad. No damage in our neighborhood. Glad you Atlanta people are okay.

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  13. I hope you are feeling better soon and that your doctor has a miracle cure for you. I wish we would have a nice rainstorm. At least the nights are cool now. Mr. Forest is on his way to true feline magnificence.

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  14. Forest is such an adorable fluffer. Good luck with the migraine doctor. I mentioned this on a past post, but I too pretty much stopped having migraines after getting pregnant at 38. One of the many joys my daughter has brought me. If men got migraines as much as women, they’d probably be cured.

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  15. Tell that doctor to fix it or I’m coming down there to have a word with him.
    I kinda want to feel witchy about how magnificent Forest is, but that’s negated by how great he is for you, and that you love him so.

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  16. LOVE your kitchen. So pretty and clean and fresh.

    Forest is a delight.

    Advice is so hard. None of us know what anyone else is going through, but most people are trying to help when they give it. But you’re so right about the judging and how easy that is. I feel terrible for piling on D00ce now.

    Hoping the work stuff works out, the headache doctor has solutions, and that the hurricane leaves you alone!

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  17. Good luck with the migraine doctor. I’ll join the crowd that says finally at some point when the hormones are finally all gone (and it took a while after official menopause), the migraines are mostly gone as well.

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  18. I really hope you can get some relief from the terrible migraines. We had the hurricane before daylight this morning lots of rain and high winds. Forest is beautiful. I bet he knows that.

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  19. But have you tried giving up caffeine? Lord people like that are the worst. I had a friend who thought she was helpful with her suggestions, but really she was just a bossy cow. I hope they have something that came out in the past 10 years to help you.

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    1. I had a Facebook friend who would not get off my ass with her need to see me on Marijuana as opposed to my Western Medicine medications. Not your call, Sweetie. I finally blocked her bossy ass. I had/have a relative like that. She keeps her bloodsugar under much better control than I do but I have a hormonal disorder that she does not. Everyone needs to mind their own health and bodies and stick judgement up their own asses. HATE it! I hope you get help, June. I can not imagine living with those headaches. I get sinus and tension headaches and those are enough. Tylenol works for them usually. My bowels are another issue and I get SO tired of hearing, “Well, what did you eat?”

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  20. Okay, you guys are cat peeps and you’ll know what I should do: I recently adopted a stray, took him to get his shots, get fixed, whole nine yards. He’s about a year old and rather small, but super snuggly and attention-seeking. I’ve started slowly introducing him to my three other cats. And each time he sees them, he savagely attacks them. He scratched one across the butt and I had to spend a lot of money at the vet to get her antibiotic shots when it wouldn’t heal. Now one of the others is limping after the new guy got out of the isolation room. I don’t want to rehome him but I’m trying to figure out what to do next. I don’t know where the line is that I say, “nope, he’s gotta go.”

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    1. I’m sorry to tell you that my friend had your exact cat situation. After trying everything she had to bring him back to the adoption center. Everyone was so sad about it.

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  21. Lovely post and lovely kitchen. My kitchen looks nothing like your clean and tidy kitchen at 7:52 a.m. And the medical/pharmaceutical/insurance industry complex has figured out how to *cure* Hepatitis C. Why can’t they come up with even a treatment for migraines? ‘Tis a puzzlement.

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  22. My migraines come with an aura, so I get a warning. Sometimes, I go blind in my left eye. Good times! I have discovered that some protein as soon as I get an aura helps a little. The migraines have pretty much disappeared now that I’m in my sixties . Yikes, how did that happen? Unfortunately, my regular headaches remain. Here in NJ the weather has been awful. I can’t remember the last time we saw the sun. I also can’t remember the last time I did not have a low grade headache. So much fun being me. I love Forrest and miss having a kitty.

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  23. I used to get migraines a lot when I was younger—I usually had to be taken to the ER for a shot of what I think was Demerol, and I would be out for 18 hours and when I awoke they were gone. It was an expensive treatment in both money and time. Then when I was 37 I got pregnant (my husband and I had been married for 17 years at this point) and BANG, no more migraines! I do see,, however, that this might a bit of a drastic measure for you.

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  24. Lovely post Coot.
    I hate that you are having daily migraines. I hope you get some relief.
    I can link mine to several things, but especially weather. The barometric pressure is my barometer. The impending hurricane would be my undoing if I weren’t on the backside of it. We just had a cold front move in and it put me in writhing pain for 2 days. Sudafed and I matrix helps but doesn’t make it go completely away. But that’s me.
    Another thing judgy people say that irks me is “I would have never let that happen to me”. Really? You are that good that you could have foreseen the unknown and kept it from happening g to you? Makes me crazy.

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      1. I have a relative that will say stuff like “they should have known”, as if something that seems obvious to her based on her life experiences should seem just as obvious to someone with a completely different set of life experiences. Drives me nuts!

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  25. I’ve only had one migraine in my life and it made me cry. So… I am sorry yours are a regular occurrence and the drs can’t find something that works, that you can tolerate.

    Forest is a floof.

    I can’t EVEN with assholes who offer unsolicited assvice.

    I wonder if the Zeta rain we’re getting here in northern VA is the same crap you’re getting.. it’s a dark and stormy day here as well. Now I want a Dark and Stormy.

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  26. Coffee is all I have…I feel the same. Although I don’t get migraines much anymore, I feel like coffee is all I have due to pandemic. Anyhoo, I noticed that Forest Lawn has a lovely ruff beginning around his neck!

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  27. OMG, I stupidly STUPIDLY said the same thing to an abused person not leaving the abuser. I still have such guilt over being such a jerk. I wasn’t judging, I was just completely clueless. And I should’ve known better. Still haunts me.

    Anyway. I used to get migraines, but not often, thankfully, because I was completely felled by them. I won’t go into details because you are aware of them. Knock wood, I haven’t had one in years and possibly that’s because I had my whore of a uterus removed years ago. I don’t know if there’s an connection, but I wouldn’t put it past that bitchy uterus.

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  28. I love your kitchen.
    At the risk of sounding like a pot-head, has any doctor recommended medical marijuana for your migraines? If they have, and you’ve already mentioned and/or discarded such a thought, I apologize. I have a friend who suffers from them, though, and she’s found that the Maryjane is just the ticket.

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      1. Sorry to hear that! Medical is legal in NY, and it’s been a good thing for a lot of people. Doesn’t help you, though. I sincerely hope that your doctor has some new (legal) tricks up their sleeve!

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      2. I just got CBD pills for my back pain. LMK if you need a hook up. I think – but have no clue — they are legal everywhere. But what do I know? bc mellow……

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          1. Well, hell. Really, it must be hell. (I used to get them, but then I joined the “I’m too old for migraine” club or something. But god, the pain was relentless.)

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        1. I use CBD cream for my back pain and restless legs – pretty reliable. (As I’ve told my doctor – I don’t care if it’s a placebo effect, I’ll take it.)

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  29. Oh June that’s awful. I hope the doc can
    help. Funny the light was first thing I noticed in that photo. Agreed must be replaced. I say a chandelier. A nice smallish one would be so pretty.

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  30. I’m sorry you’re having a local hurricane. I hope you don’t blow away! I also hope that doctor has come up with something new since 10 years ago!
    My mom is a migraine specialist and she gives people some thing up their nose. I don’t know what it is because I refuse to try it. She swears her patients do great, but I can’t get past the idea that she’s my mom, and it’s weird that other people trust her with their health.
    I wouldn’t give up caffeine either. I’m pretty sure that would make my migraines worse!

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  31. Dear June;
    You have such a pretty kitchen. I adore the stormy accents outside your window.
    I am so sorry about the migraines. My daughter has migraines. I used to have migraines, but I can’t tell you what made them disappear other than I am older and I don’t have a uterus anymore. I once met an old lady while I was a young lady and she told me that her daily migraines ended when she became an old lady. I don’t know the correlation other than perhaps the estrogen reduction.

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    1. Maybe in the last ten years they’ve developed some secret migraine weapon that will knock your migraines on to the moon. Fingers crossed.

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